Lost Angel

In my mind, I've been seeking you
In the dark, like I always do
Fallen angel, you are long lost
And I don't even know who you are anymore

But all those lies
They saved me a hundred times
And, somehow, you were always there
Hurt eyes, staring me in my moments of despair

Although I know you can't see me
And although I know you can't hear me
I sing for you to myself
Lost angel, are you there?

If you are, please don't come
Spread your wings and fly away
Forget all the promises we made
In a place where I can never hurt you again

The Outcast's Agony

What you feel
Is it real? - at all?

My feet don't touch the ground
The sun can't burn my skin
Oh, this life we're living
I need much more than this

I want much more than this
I need much more than this
I can't feel satisfied
I can't feel complete

All this pale collors
All this fake feelings
We are not alive
No, we're not in peace

You - are - not- sincere

I want much more than this
I need much more than this
I can't feel satisfied
I can't feel complete

Seeking for something to free me from my pain
But could I live without it? I'm afraid
Constantly agonizing, screaming in vain
Moving on, coming back, and again

I want much more than this
I need much more than this
I can't feel satisfied
I can't feel complete

And you can't save me

Too late

Too late to say anything
Too late to regret what you've done to me
Too late to regret never listening
To regret you never even tried to see


The blood is already running (it's been a while)
and you weren't here to stop me
But don't feel bad
I can finally free all my tears


Too late to ask what happened
Too late to say that I mattered
Too late to apologize
But maybe still in time to say goodbye


That's okay
I never wanted to be a burden
And now I can finally ease my pain
Don't ask me to stay, it's too late


It's too late to remember all the signs I gave
Even too late to finally understand
I'm going, I'm gone
There is no one


It is too late to cry for me.

Condor

Esgoto-me de repetir as mesmas velhas palavras
De novo e de novo
Mas não há nada de diferente a se dizer
Presa em um ciclo vicioso

O mesmo sofrimento
Em diferentes palavras e idades
Em diferentes línguas e maneiras
Em diferentes graus e maturidades

Mas tudo continua exatamente igual
Ando arrastando as mesmas correntes
Sangro das mesmas feridas
Chorando as mesmas agonias

Percorro o caminho de pedras e espinhos
Esperando encontrar as pétalas no fim
Quando há este fim de chegar?
Espero e caminho, não posso trazê-lo até mim
Espero e caminho, até que tudo esteja escuro, enfim

Os gritos de desespero jogados ao abismo
Hão de retornar
Quando já não estiver aqui
Alguém há de escutar

Alguém há de se lembrar que não fui toda dor
E que existiu alguém vivo onde hoje eu estou
Que houveram desejos e pedidos negados
Antes do silencio
Que houve riso antes dos tantos choros amargos

E as palavras que ninguém leu
Hão de ser a chave para desvendar
Tudo aquilo que havia por trás do silencio
De alguém que hoje já não pode mais falar.
De alguém que sobreviveu da dor
Como pessoas sobrevivem de ar
Pois foi tudo que restou
Ao condor que nunca voou

Estranho Mundo

E não há nada que não seja o vazio
Mais uma vez
O que me faz correr atrás de um abrigo
Cega e desesperadamente
Mesmo que seja falso
Mesmo que seja proibido

Vazio
Este que me corrói
Enquanto as lágrimas me inundam olhos e face
E o vácuo destrói meu interior
Quando cada pensamento dói

Dor agonizante
Quem mais poderia entender além de quem sente?
Nada sabe
Nada entende da dor
Aquele que contempla os olhos de quem mente

Já não estou
Já não sou aquele que um dia fui
Morto pelas algemas que me sufocaram pouco a pouco
Morto pelo desgosto

E a cada vez que abro os olhos tento reviver
E a cada vez que os abro me sinto morrer
Mais um pedaço de mim que se vai
Mas um pedaço de mim que se esvai

O que entende da dor aquele que a vê? Que a Le?
Uma letra não é uma cicatriz
Um parágrafo não é a ferida que sangra
Apenas o retrato...
Uma sombra da dor que este emana

Livrai-me!
Permita-me dormir
Permita-me, eu imploro, saber o que há além daqui

Curse

Thousands of times I've tried to run
I've been burning and drowning all at once
I've prayed and cursed for this to stop
Promised not let hope grow anymore

However, I'm stil here
Fighting against agony and fear
Blindly fighting against unknow enemies
Sufocating inside my own selfishness

Consumed by my emptiness
This deep hole inside my heart keeps burning
I can try to shut my eyes to my loneliness
But I cant fool myself for much longer

How much more will it take before I succumb forever?
How many times will I wake without a dream to tell?
You say my tears are fascinating
I'm under a curse, not a spell

And this pain that eats away
It's all I have
I become pathetically lost without that

So, please, dont kill it away
It's all that I live for
You will save me simply getting me in your arms when I fall

Asfixia

Rasga-me a garganta, dor maldita contida
Faz-me morrer mil vezes de agonia
Mostra-me o quão estou longe
E que tudo o que me resta é o lamento lúgubre

Rasga-me a alma, dor maldita contida
Enquanto a realidade se mostra em seu veneno
Destruindo, apodrecendo, maltratando e corroendo
Tudo o que um dia poeria ter sido

Deixe que o sangue escorra mil vezes em minha mente
E que mil escapatórias se pintem debilmente
Que um sorriso traga a esperança
Que eu caia agonizante novamente

O silêncio absoluto corroendo-me a sanidade
Dando espaço às vozes assassinas em minha mente
Mas são as únicas que eu tenho
Únicas companhias, e únicas que eu temo

Sem que qualquer um saiba ou o queira fazer
Grito ao vácuo mais uma vez
O maior medo continua a se concretizar
Minha vida se tornando um eterno talvez...

The Only Real

Nothing touches me
Your smile,every empty word you keep saying
For I do not belong in here

I wanted to feel darkness falling over me
Cause the light showing everything keeps hurting
And I thought without that I could have some peace

Nothing satisfies me
Not even your warm touch on my cold skin
Because I cannot feel anything
I'm named the ice princess and I wont ask you to save me

Not this time
Leave me alone in the dark
Because that's where I was born
and that's where I'm suposed to die
Selfish creatures do not deserve the light

Do not say you can save me
Without knowing what poison runs trhough my veins
It kills me
When they look at me as I was someone they should tame

I am not sick
I'm the only real in a world of insanes

Pandora's Agony

I can’t stop regretting
All I’ve done was to harm myself
I can’t stop regretting
Since the first day I am waiting for the end

I can’t stop regretting of all the evil in the world
I can’t stop regretting of each small step I took in this way
I can’t stop regretting of waiting for the one
And can’t stop regretting believing in an end for my pain

How can I be so tired and hopeless?
Why does it hurt when I open my eyes?
How can everything seem so extremely senseless?
Will I have to wait patiently while all the good in me dies?

It hurts every time I look back
Yet I can’t find anything I would change
In the end, I couldn’t live without my pain
And I hold on to the painful memories
As if it would be even worse without them
Only emptiness, all I have

Can’t stop regretting everything I have done
Even while I was doing I knew I was doing wrong
Yet doesn’t matter how much I try
I will never know how it is to do right

A curse or just destiny
I fear I will never know
I just know that, while my end doesnt come
All I cand do is go on
Bringing disgrace to my world...

Convulsion

Any place to run to
Anymore
Those tears are not there
Anymore
They are here
My biggest fear
Is to be here now

The more I scream
More silence I hear
Around me

My glass cage has become the only place
And I got so used to the pain
I can barely feel anything else. Anymore.

My biggest fear is belonging in here.

All all of you say sounds so fake and meaningless
Although I tried to believe
Although I tried to achieve
Although I tried to live
I tried.
I tried not to cry

My glass cage has become the only place
And I got so used to the pain
I can barely feel my wings. Anymore.

Any place to run to
Anymore
Those tears are not there
Anymore
They are here
My biggest fear
Is to be here now

My biggest fear Is belonging in here


My glass cage has become the only place
And I got so used to the pain
I cannot escape. Anymore.

Canção do Exílio

dedicado à Katrina de Salém

Arrastei-me e sangrei

Implorei-te e chorei

Leva-me de volta

Aos braços daquele que jamais encontrei

Anos recebendo o silêncio

Agora eu sei

Em meio a cinzas e podridão me ergo

Se esta é minha sina, aceito

Farei deste inferno minha casa

E desta sujeira meu leito

Canto a canção do exílio

Sabendo que jamais retornarei

Fui abandonada em um mundo estranho

“Mate para viver” “Obedeça a esta lei”

Enquanto eles me prendem ao chão

Penso se devo deixar que algo daqui me toque

Ou somente refugiar-me em solidão

Fora do lugar, sem rumo

Entregue à minha própria sorte

Seco a lágrima amarga

Sentindo-me culpada por perder a fé

Pai presente e calado

Disseste-me coisas que não pude entender

Seco a lágrima amarga

Sentindo-me culpada por não saber

Por que fui deixada, expulsa

Por que dói tanto apenas sobreviver

Olho para este céu de estrelas encobertas

Mais solitária que meu coração poderia algum dia suportar

Enquanto sinto a dor dilacerando o peito

Eu sei que, apesar de tudo

Ainda tenho a esperança de retornar

Àquele lugar que, tenho certeza, algum dia chamei de lar

 

In a Friday Morning

As if life was simple
No more masks to show
No more lies to grow
As if live was simple

As if life was simple
I forget everything that hurts me
and open my eyes in a sincere smile
As if live was simple

As if I could pretend there's nothing wrong
Anything else to get done
Happines is in the next door
As if life was simple

All masks falling down
All lies forget in the past
Cause there's anymore trouble in being just myself
I open my eyes with a sincere smile
As if live was simple

Cause you can't imagine
How peaceful it is
When we're all together
As if we had nothing to say
Anymore hiding pains
As if live was simple

Not Enough

I look around
I search for
I take a breath
A tear falls

Nowhere feels like home
No place feels like mine
And I am just too tired
To keep looking for a reason why

And this hole in my heart
Why does it still hurt?
Why does it still burn?
And why are so heavy, my tears?
I thought my life had had a turn

Why in the end we have to go back to the beginning?

Why suddenly I am bleeding again?
I fall in my knees, a piercing pain
I just can’t breath, it all again

And in the end (so fool)
I still wait
For someone who could save
This dead princess from a killing pain


And this hole in my heart
Why does it still hurt?
Why does it still burn?
And why are so heavy, my tears?
I thought my life had had a turn





I just don’t have enough words
Or a enough heavy one
And in each end I’m always sure
The world will never know
How much it hurts

Fearless

You fucking hate me

Because I look so dead

You don’t remember

You killed me yourself

You made me this

You hate all you did

And all this hate is

A result

Of your power of destruction

Look behind and remember

Tell me a day

When you weren’t this monster

You know you have become

All your hate comes from

The fact that you know

What I look outside

Is inside of you so

Much more then you could show

I show

Fearless

I know

Who I am

Look behind and remember

Tell me a day

When you weren’t this monster

You know you have become

Your colorful clothes

Can’t hide

You are so rotten inside

All this mourning and pain

You hate

Because it’s just something you made

Your blissful smile

Can’t hide

You are so rammish inside

You are afraid of what you could see inside of yourself

You are afraid of what I could show, I know

But I am not

I am fearless

I show

Fearless

I know

Who I am

I show

Fearless

I know

Who you are

Deep Agony

You cannot imagine
How it is to live in agony
Every second
Without a time to breath
You cannot imagine how it is to never rest in peace

Looking inside myself
For something that shows me I'm still alive
I find only loneliness
Not a tear to cry

And it doesn't matter
Doesn't matter the voices around me
I am still alone
I will always be
Nowhere feels like home
Doesn't matter if you say I can choose
The pain is still here
It has consumed me

And I am empty
Not knowing what I am

Could you understand?
Could anyone else take this pain?

And I feel so sick
I feel like giving up
Feel like I am falling
So heavy, feelig worse

You cannot imagine
How it is to be here
An eternity locking myself inside of me

Trying to see through the dark
I am so tired
Looking for a reason why
I am so blind
No more trying to ignore
I am so lost

You cannot imagine
How it is to be bleeding
Every second
Without a chance to be me
You cannot imagine how it is to never rest in peace

If I could just say
How deep is this ache
If I could just cry
And make it go away...

The Thorns

Do not get closer
Do not touch the rose
When I tell you to be aware
I know you will get hurt

Hipnotized by the velvet red and danger
One more step you take
Wanting to be close
Just because it's so far away
Bad reasons
Bad end

And don't try to dry my tears
You will end up poisoning
All the beautful things
You could find on it

Do not touch the rose
As pretty as it can be
Do not get any closer
As tempting it may seem
Don't try too hard to be the one
The fragile bridge can come undone

And when you see your blood staining the thorns
It will be too late
I will just say 'I told you'
And sadly get away

Vicious

Once again

It all again

I see the blood

I feel the pain

Stop it

Stop it

Just make it go away

I wish

I wish I could breath

I wish I could feel

Something beyond that agony

That makes me fall in my knees

Every single time I see

What really is around me

The nothing

It burns my throat

But I can’t cry

It would just show

That slowly I die

It burns my throat

But I’ll just lie

I won’t let them know

I’m too tired to try

And I’ll wait for the day

I’ll feel alive in the right way

Not just because of the pain

Not just because of the pain I feel

When I realize the most precious things aren’t real

Could you one day

Just show up and kill the pain?

Kiss my lips and say good night

Lead me to bed

I don’t want to wake up

I don’t want to cry

Calling the name of the one

I will never have in my arms

Olá, seres humanos leitores deste blog. Estou passando para uma breve observação.
 Sim, a boca das fotos ao lado que agora ilustram os dois blogs é minha. O efeito maravilhoso foi adicionado pela Sofia, que além de ser ótima com as fotos se revela igualmente talentosa na escrita. Seu blog está na lista, ao lado direito do blog, aproveitem. Ela também acrescentou a moldura na foto original, a de baixo, que acabou ficando com esse efeito de pele branca simplesmente por um defeito na minha webcam.

Gostaram? Procurem o blog da Sofia aí em baixo e falem com ela.
 Até o próximo post.

Damned

Lutando contra o medo
De ser consumida, lentamente, pelo silêncio
Enquanto arrasto, dolorosamente, correntes
A dor em meu peito

Lutando contra o medo
De ser consumida, lentamente, pela maré que me arrasta
Fincando meu pé, firmemente, me recuso a ser a caça
O peso em meu peito

Por mais que doa, permanecerei aqui
Se apenas me deixar levar é o antídoto para a dor
Que me consuma, então
Aceitarei o que vier, seja o que for

Mas jamais vestirei de bom grado
As algemas, as correntes que arrasto
Tentar quebrá-las machuca
Deixe me sangrar
Ainda há a chama, a fé
De que um dia isso tudo vai cessar

Os abultres me rodeiam
Minha carne não os alimentará
Os abultres me rodeiam
Aguarde, eternamente
Minha alma me pertence e assim será
Até o fim da vida
Manterei a minha mente
A única coisa que ainda me pertence

A dor jamais fará sentido para quem não a sente
O grito não pode ser entendido por quem não possui ouvidos
Carregarei comigo
A maldição de viver entre os malditos

A solidão presente em cada momento
Olhar em volta e ver chega a doer por dentro (eu sangro)
Carregarei comigo
A maldição de viver entre os malditos

E não há o que possa ser dito
Nada vai mudar
Sou apenas mais um, entre os tantos aflitos
Nada que possa ser dito
Carregarei comigo
A maldição de viver entre os malditos

Still Waiting

So lost and so empty

Trying to stay alive

And I am still waiting

For the tears I should cry

For the anger I should show out loud

I should scream

I’m still waiting

And a strange idea comes to my mind

That I should stop waiting and start to try

That I should stop crying and start to fight

But then I look down and see

My broken wings

The chains in my bloody ankles

And I fall in my knees

Cause I should be young and free

Yeah I should be young and free

I can’t help this tear

Cause I should be young and free

For the anger I should show out loud

I should scream

I’m still waiting

Solitary and fool

Waiting for someone

To put music on her desperate songs

And give a voice to these silent pains

Be alive in so many different ways

Cause I should be young and free

Yeah I should be young and free

I can’t help this tear

Cause I should be young and free

I’m still waiting

Let me, drag me

In the back, something
Trying to drag me
To my world, where I belong
Away from here


But let me be
It’s where I should be
Although I’m dying
Although I’m bleeding

Who I am supposed to be
What I should say
Who I was made to be
The choice I should make

Stop trying to drag me
To where I want to be

But I want to
Take me, take me
And set me free

Set me free from who I am supposed to be
Set me free because I am dying in here
Don’t set me free because I was made to this

But I want to
Take me, take me
And set me free

Essa pequena letra de música (sem música) que acabei de postar aí em baixo já nasceu muito importante para mim. Ela retrata o relacionamento de dois personagens novos, que me cativaram desde o primeiro momento.

 Essa nova história ainda está no primeiro capítulo. Mas eu pretendo, mais cedo possível, postar algo sobre no blog Darkness Maiden em Prosa. Desejem-me sorte e inspiração.

Lullaby

 And now you're lying your head in my chest
Crying that you never wanted your life to go this way
And now you're bleedind once again
But this time you just cannot find a way to stop the pain

 Then I hear yout tired voice asking me to bring you back from the hole you have become
I feel your tear falling down through my skin
I fell your pain, I feel your agonny

 Sweet kid, don't cry
You know I'll be here
When you close your eyes
And silently fall asleep

 We know some times we need more then empty words to kill the agony
We know we need more to silence this scream inside of us

 Sweet kid, take my hand
And let's walk away

 Sad kid, don't cry
It wont always be this way

Never

Não é dos meus melhores... Mas com certeza é dos mais verdadeiros



This was never what I wanted
This was never what I craved
While my tears keep falling
All I wish is to get away

Will I ever have a life?
Will I ever have a choice?
Will I have the right to fight?
Be bounded here… no more

When will you see?
The life you choose
Is not for me
Neither to you

You keep me here
In this glass cage
You built to me
How much more can I stand?

And yet, it’s what makes me write
It’s what makes me be
When it comes the time
Will I choose be myself?
Or will I choose be free?

Staying here for so long
I can see what I’m without
But I don’t know what is beyond
Could I breathe when I’m out?

I cried so many times
Asking you to free me
I found my self bleeding so many times
I tasted the blood
And it felt good

And, yes! It’s what makes me write
It’s what makes me be
When it comes the time
Will I choose be myself?
Or will I choose be free?

And in the end,
My keeper,
I realize
I should thank
For make me bleed
Making who I am

And when it comes the time
I know I won’t have to chose
My eyes in you will lie
And the choice will be with you

Darkness Maiden em Prosa

A partir de agora, tudo que for escrito por mim em prosa será postado aqui.
 Os comentários da crônica e do conto que estavam aqui já foram transferidos, e eu agradeço a todos vocês pelos elogios.
 Não deixem de visitar o Darkness Maiden em prosa. Prometo que sempre havera uma novidade lá.
 Até mais.

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Handle This

I can stand this all alone
I don’t need your indulgence
There will never be someone
Who can understand
Who would be here when I find my end

I can handle this
I can handle this all alone
Please don’t care about this
Please don’t care about my tears
They will dry on their on

I know I am
Enough to myself
I now I’ll never need

I know I am
Alone forever
You will be never here

Oh don’t care
Please don’t care
Please don’t care about my tears

I can handle this
I will kill alone
All my fears

You break me
Again and again
And you ask me
To don’t be like this

Well, I can’t smile
But I can promise you
You will never see my tears

Don’t worry
Please don’t worry about my tears
I am alone
And I’ll stand alone all of my pain
I will kill my hopes
I will be okay

Oh don’t care
Please don’t care
Please don’t care about my tears

I can handle this
I will kill alone
All my fears

And inside
This pain grows
Of someone sad and insecure
Someone lonely and scared
Someone who’ll be just a kid forever
Someone who forgot all that matters

But don’t care
Please don’t care about me
I know who I am
I can handle this…

Go to The Rain

Don't be decieved by the blue sky
You Know, I know
Soon here will come the rain
And it's not gonna be okay

Look to the horizon
and go to the direction of the rain
Fell the water washing all your pain

If you are afraid of the fears
You know that they'll be always here
You know that they will gain on you
You know that they will gain on me

Don't be afraid
Look to the horizon
and follow the rain
Feel at last it wash all your pain
Away

(Uma pequena mensagem de ano novo. Felizes aqueles que entenderem)